@ iNUM also known as isetan num.

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FREEDOM AT LAST!

Finally, now that my attachment is over i can do alot of things that i never had the time or wanted to.

HERE’S TO FREEDOM! WOOHOO!

I HATE THIS FEELING

i need more rugby, i need to vent my anger. Or rather take things off my mind but i realized i cant do this forever. It’s time to man up.

nostalgia

It’s the very few chinese songs i listen to. This means something because i had a friend sang it to me many years back, and i love the story behind this song.

Rugby really have taken things off my mind, i find so much joy in it. I miss and still missing my cg members and church. They are such darlings, they are really happiness and joy in human fom. I guess it’s people like them that makes me realized God is constantly smiling at me. How is everyone doing? Give me a buzz to let me know you all are doing fine yeah? i may not be able to meet up with you all but i miss you guys ALOT!

 

 

Till then..

life is not so complicated, it’s just baby steps.

Life is different now, i realised that many things changed. Situations change, people change. Nothing stays the way it is forever. Maybe for some people yes, i have yet to see anything like that. The word forever can carry such weight that i dont dare use it. Actions comes reponsibility, words carry consequences.

So far, im quite happy with life. Work and rugby. rugby gives me feeling of feeling free and God is indeed good because i realised how much i need him in times like that. Was just talking to my friend just now, time flies. I knew him since i was 15. He said i changed. I would say i owe a whole lot to my friends. My family i will often choose to call them instead of friends. They have been there for me for almost all my special occasions. My 18 birthday, my first argue with my girlfriend, my first grand final rugby and many other important events in my life. Part of my life i have to say i owe it to them. If not for them i wouldn’t be who i am today.

Definitely God will be my main strength. I believe because of him. So many things that i never thought i would be able to do so much. I always thought i had a complicated life and this fine day, my supervisor who is a christian suddenly reminded me in a way that it struck me so right on. He said this, God made it simple, man made it difficult. The way, the truth, the light. Then i began to thought to myself , my life is really simple. God made it that way. Why do i have to try so hard to change things? God already made a way, why do i want to go my own way? Everyone has their own destiny, but it’s all in God’s will. What will happen, will happen. I shouldn’t let my problem stop me from living the life i want. What happened in the past be it good or bad will be lessons that i keep in life. It’s chapters in my life. What’s a good book when you have incompleted chapters?

 God made it simple, man made it difficult.

I’m not perfect, God is. Why me? Let God instead.

thinking

thinking about the things that i have been through and certainly i would say i have come a long way, but still not long enough to make me wise. It’s everyone and everything around me that makes me wiser. I have been thinking all these while, about certain stuff that i hope can be salvage. Until the string snaps, i will still hold on. I might end up falling hard but then again i must learn how to stand up once again. Road to a hundred percent isn’t easy. Painful and dreadful may be the most appropriate term. Why am i still doing this? Reason being, i want to live life the painful way. I’m not a psycho or sadist. It’s just something i realized. Going through all the pain may be miserable and why would anyone in the correct state of mind want to go through all that when a simple life is good enough. i want to to be able to feel the uptmost anguish in the world and being able to feel and understand what’s going on in the world and around i believe makes me a better person. Learning to appreciate by being at a level where nobody can. By going through i feel that it’s the best way to understand.

P.S: i have been thinking too.

WOWOWOW!

it’s been donkey years since i last updated my blog. Last post july 25th. WOW how time flies! Im left with two months of attachment ending in late oct which i am really looking forward to. Haven been updated due to the fact that im too tired and that my comp is down so i dont have access to internet. Well.. I have been posting stuff on facebook recently and that those who read my blog will probably be thinking if had already abandoned this site. For sure i wouldn’t and if i do i will state on my blog.

Let’s see, where do i start? this period of time was a struggle for me, there are many things in my life that is really challenging me to go to another level. Times are bad and that it’s really tough i have to admit, im not all strong and unbeatable, there were times where i nearly gave up but thank god for friends to guide me through by showering me with care and concern. Though this period of time is really tough i also learned alot of things and realized many things. Life is a lesson and that like many students we stumble upon difficult question but and the end of the day once we get to know the answer we become smarter and a better student. I believe it’s like this. Though i have to admit i complain alot! but i also realized being a whiner doesn’t make me a better person. As mush as i hate this attachment i believe it’s a growing phrase in life where by we are to do things that we dont enjoy, been through situations like this and im convince i will become a better person in time to come. There’s so much on my mind now, so much i want to do. Thinking about the times where by i had nothing to do and complain how boring life can be. Hahah! Humans can never be satisfied dont you think so? Too free? complain. Too busy? ALSO COMPLAIN!! HAHAH!

Well.. life and it’s ups and downs. Like the subtitle of my blog, life is a daring adventure or nothing. Either we leave a legacy or we get washed out. My life, your life. Live it the way you want it to be and let nobody take over as the author.

Goodnight.

hang on, it’s just starting to get interesting. :)

Cell was great at riverwalk. Oh just a quick update, we drew with SRC. 15-15. Not too bad when we are playing guys twice our size, hahah! Oh besides that, i got a seperated shoulder injury while playing. No biggie la! just want to recover fast so i can play soon! NO RUGBY = NO LIFE!!

Now that i realized in life theres many things that you actually have to fight for. I’m glad i did. If i hesitated, things will not be how i want it already. I’m just glad that im finally learning to take control of things in my life.

Trust

What is truth? Basically it means to tell whatever that happened right? Why not we put it this way.

Truth is when people choose to believe things said by you. Truth by you can often be lies to people if they do not believe or rather they dont want to believe.

I am exasperated. Truth can be cheapen by the views of others.

OFF DAY! WOOHOO!!

Well well.. What can i say, tomorrow is my off day! WOOHOO! hahah! Work plus training equals DEAD TIRED! I have to work so hard to get appointments plus i need to train hard because i want to win the U20 tournament damn badly. The coaches have faith in us, i have faith in the team, i know we can! Next tuesday is my first game, im thinking about it so much that thats the only thing on my mind now. Kicking off at 7.30pm YCK stadium. I want to walk out of the stadium celebrating. A couple of my mates are in SRC but sorry guys, just so you know i want this more than you do. Also i hope i can impress enough. I want a better season, this is my second and i want to be better than last year.

Work aside, I saw this jeans at Topmen. SO GOING TO GET IT! HAHAHA! Time to shop man! GSS! A lil update on this few days, I met up with this very special friend of mine. Her name is Xueni, she is one of the most interesting person you will ever know. She’s larger than life. Serious! thought it was real short meet up but im happy to see her doing so well now. Recently my Dad brought me a webcam so i can webcam already! HAHA! well, Im so going to sleep and sleep. Wake up tomorrow and then go for a swim. Alright folks! GOODNIGHT!